When You’ve Had Enough

Hi,

Sorry I haven’t been posting as much as I would like, but this semester I started graduate school and it has been exhausting. This whole semester I’ve just been thinking everyday “WHY DID I DO THIS?”. I know that in the end having my master’s degree will be a great benefit for my career, but I have been going to school non-stop and I feel like i’m at the point where I’m just done and I want to work. There’s so much more to life than having to worry about taking tests and studying every single day. Before I use to think school was so important, but don’t get me wrong school is important, but if you already have a degree than you should be fine. Everyday I do homework hours at a time and I always think that there is so much more stuff that I could be doing with my time. Life is meant to be lived, its not meant to sit in a room with your face in a book. Not only is school exhausting, but its also so difficult too. I’m getting to the point where I feel hopeless and lost.

I know these aren’t usually the typically things I post about, but I wanted to take some time and just went out my stress. Does anyone out there going through the same thing that I am going through? If you are I would love to hear how you are getting through this. Well I would write more, but I have a group meeting for school. This group sucks BTW. LOL.

Thanks for taking the time to read this post.

XOXO

Kimmeh

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Body Image

Recently a blogger that I follow posted an image of a badly done Photoshop image on Target’s website. They tried to create a “thigh gap” on the model. And for those of you who don’t know what that is, it is basically a gap in your thigh so that your thighs don’t touch. I thought that it was so crazy how big this tread is spreading. So I wanted to take some time to talk about body image. I, myself like many other girls in America have body issues. I am very short, which causes me to be a little bit bigger for my size. If I were a couple inches taller, than my body would actually be thinner. I struggle a lot with no only my weight, but my looks as well. I actually wouldn’t mind if my body looked better and my weight still stayed the same. I feel like I have done everything I could to get into shape. I would use to run 3 miles a day, I’ve tried juicing, cutting out junk, and exercising like crazy. I feel like non of that has worked. I’m going to Florida in a couple of months and my goal was to look great in a bikini, but I feel like my goal is lost and that I should give up. 

Does anyone out there feel the same way as I do? That no matter what you do, nothing works? You see all these girls who have accomplished their weight loss goal and I feel like why isn’t it the same for me? What am I doing wrong?There are some days where I want to give up and get liposuction or try weight loss pills and then maybe I would see the results that I want. Unfortunately, lipo is super expensive $$$. I’ve heard a lot about body sculpting, but I am very skeptical about it and if it really does work. So if anyone out there has tried it I would love to hear your opinions on it and what your experience was like. 

I still have 3 months until my trip so all I can do is exercise, eat better, and drink more water. For my whole life I’ve never been that pretty skinny girl. For most of my life I have always been the bigger than the rest of my friends and I have always hated that feeling. As i got older I started learning how to do my hair better and my makeup. That was the only thing that would actually give me confidence no matter what my size was. If I didn’t have makeup then I would feel lost. That’s why I want to shed the excess weight so that I can be toned. I have always dreamed of being a better me and now is the time for me to get serious.

Sorry if this post is a little long, but I want girls out there who read this blog to know that there are other girls out there who feel this way and that there not alone. I’m just an ordinary girl who at times feels lost in this world. Its hard to keep up with what society calls “perfect”, but as long as you do what makes you happy, then that’s all that matters. 

XOXO 

Kimmeh